CHANGE | Postponed but Not Forever!!

It is January 12 and have I started any of the things I wanted to? No.  I am not being too hard on myself because we are in the middle of so many huge changes.  I haven't found, nor made, the time to put out the effort.  I am going to give myself the rest of this week to acclimate to the empty house and the preparations for the move and then I am going to get busy!!! 


I didn't make new years resolutions for the changes I want to make so I do not consider this a failure.  It is just delayed!!!  Today I am going to sit down and get my plan together to get started on Monday.  I know I can make the changes I need to make in order to change my health, I just have to get started!!! 


The stress of the move and so forth has really caused me a lot of stress and my MS is acting out.  Tremors and brainlessness seem to be pretty common here lately but I know these things will get under control with the health and lifestyle changes I am making!!! 

Time to get busy!!

RUN | See Jane Run

I am a runner.  I always have been.  I feel best when I run and I feel most accomplished when I run.  Before MS took over my life I was in training for a marathon.  I ran long runs every weekend with my running team and ran alone during the week. As much as I  loved the long runs, it was the weekly runs that were my motivators. When I ran alone I ran with God. 

I can remember the great healing that would take place in my soul as I ran.  That one on one time with God was the best part of my day. The best runs were the ones that took place out an about in the midst of the beautiful creations God has made.  To smell the clean air and the feel the dirt move beneath my feet was inspiring.  Birds singing sounded more beautiful than any song that could play on my Ipod.  It was those runs that made me feel even closer to God.

MS took away a part of me and I intend to get it back.  I will not be defeated by this disease.  I will not lose my sense of self to this invisible pain in my rear.  My second goal for 2012 is to get out and RUN.  I will run again this year.  I will be free in the beautiful outdoors with my Heavenly Father and I will get my quality time with Him each day!!

Lord, I am ready and it is just you and me on those roads!  Let's go!!!

MOTIVATE | A Gentle Reminder

 I found this on pinterest and loved it. I believe it came from Beautiful You.  It is a gentle reminder that the one true change I need to make is to love my body.  I don't need to compare it to others.  God gave me the body I have and it is a beautiful temple that should be cared for, not abused.  I have not loved my body and I have not cared for it.  That is what this project is all about: learning to love myself, my body and care for it the way it should be!!

I will not be a perfect 10 and I don't believe that there is such a thing as perfect!!  Each woman in this world has imperfections of some type on their body.  We all have to learn to love our bodies for the beautiful gift they are from God!  Sure I can lose weight and be healthy, but if I don't love my body, what was it all for???

My motivation begins today even though my project does not begin until January 1.  I have decided that I need to begin creating goals for my personal project and the first goal is to learn to love my body.

CHANGE | This Time It's a Good Thing

I am fat.  I have been this way for several years. I wasn't always fat.  I used to be thin and active, a very healthy woman.  I don't know how this happened.  Well, actually I do..I quit being active and quit eating healthy.  I let stress overcome my life and for a while I just didn't care about my body, my health or my weight. I was putting all of my time into my kids and my work.  I have dealt with stressful situations over the past several years that no person should ever have to face, but I made it through with the help of Jesus Christ.  But now....it's time to make a change.  It is time to care about me.  It is time to take care of my health and my body.  It is time to lose the fat and gain the fit.  This will be the toughest project I have ever taken on, it is easier for me to care about helping others than it is for me to care about  me, but I can do this with the help of my Heavenly Father.  I can change.  I can be fit.  I can be the me I have always wanted to be!!

So here I go.  2012 will be my year to make a change that will turn my unfit, fat body into a fit healthy body!! I have made this blog because it will force me to stick with my plan.  I will post pictures...most of which will be very unflattering in the beginning, but I do this so I can look at myself and face the truth.  I also want to share my journey with you because it gives me a support system that is greatly needed!! I will change my lifestyle...not diet.  Diets always fail.  So once again...no I am not going on a diet!! I have been researching lifestyles and have decided that a raw lifestyle is the best for me.  I love fruits and vegetables and cannot stand meat!!  Beginning January 1 I will begin posting and ask you to follow along and post comments to keep me motivated!!!

I have Multiple Sclerosis and have read that the raw lifestyle brings about amazing healing for people like me who face this disease. It is my hope that I will be able to exercise again once I have cleaned my body from toxins!!

Check back in about 11 days...that is when my journey will begin!!